Looking Rich

Recently a lot of my friends said I look rich…. Prolly due to the impressions I gave.

I just want to say I work hard not to live averagely, if you know what I mean. There are days I left work at 11pm, I work out during lunchtime, sometimes skipping dinners etc.

Obviously, I would want to work my way up the ladder, improving my lifestyle, more travels and gaining new experience.

Then again, they prolly only see one side of me. So, I am not defending myself cause I want to be rich too ☺️ law of attraction aye?

The Truth About 30s

Nobody tells you how complicated your thirties can feel. How the ground shifts beneath you in ways you never expected.

Some friends are climbing the ladder at work, while others are walking away from careers that drained them. Some are traveling the world, while others are knee-deep in diapers and sleepless nights. Some are finally finding their voice, while others are grieving friendships that quietly faded away.

There is no one version of this decade and yet the pressure whispers that you’re behind. That you should be further along. That you’re running late to a life you were promised. But maybe you’re not late at all.

Maybe you’re exactly on time for the life that’s meant for you. Because your 30s aren’t about keeping up. They’re about shedding what doesn’t fit, rebuilding with what does, and creating a life that finally feels like yours different, imperfect, beautiful, and true.

Enjoying Life in a Slow Lane

Guess this year is all about slowing down life and de-prioritising.

Chanced upon this quote the other day.

Love your life. Take pictures of everything, tell people you love them, strike up conversations with strangers. Do the things that scare you. Because so many of us leave this world and no one remembers a thing we did. Make your life the best story ever told.

I have been practising this. Taking pictures, strike up convo with strangers at sports interest club, doing things that bring me huge change… life time. Sometimes I still wonder if I made the right decision, but guess there’s no turning back.

Today, I am here writing this journal, spending my time doing nothing at home. This is super duper rare you see. But, I am all good! Okay maybe not entirely (due to menstrual pain). I reckon I don’t need to be highly efficient at all times. Shall keep those energy for Mondays.

Cutting down on overtime with more sports, gatherings and outdoors 🍀 cause I worked too much last year, like too much! So I want to enjoy my life in slower lane, embracing new experiences. Always remind myself that life is a marathon, not a sprint. I could step down to recharge; back in actions when I feel better.

Actually, it’s not too bad to have an unproductive day once in a while. What do you think?

The Best Time Is Always Now

In a matter of moments, a lifetime of dreams turned to ash.

A brutal reminder, life is terrifyingly fragile.

Everything you build, everything you hope for, everything you love, it all hangs by a thread.

So while you can, live, love, and don’t wait for happiness to start tomorrow.

🍀

Journal Prompts for 2022

1.     What are 10 great things that happened or that you accomplished in 2021?

  • Successful internal mobility
  • Passed ICA advanced certificate
  • Met someone who changed my perception of love  
  • Blood Donation
  • Candlelight concert
  • Ocean restaurant
  • Take good care of my mental health
  • Having good boss & considerate colleagues
  • Love what I do at work
  • Signed up 2 years gym membership- best investment of the year

2.      What do you want to celebrate?

  • I made promise in doing things even though I am not sure if it is right or it will succeed, at least I took that leap of faith. And I did it!

3.     How do you want to approach 2022?    

  • Remain fearless, to live with no regrets!

4.     What qualities do you want to cultivate?

  • Let things happen, trust the process, and enjoy the ride.

5.     What bad habits do you want to leave in the past?

  • Punctuality
  • Egoistic
  • Splurging

6.    How will you commit to yourself?

  • To remember that no matter how hard it gets, I will continue to remain true to myself

7.    Where will you pour your attention?

  • Physical & mental health. Body management. Career. Education. Relationships.

8.    What habits or practices nourish you?

  • Write journals. Read books.

9.    What do you want more of in 2022?

  • To allocate more time for relationships & myself, aside work.

10.    One small thing you do everyday to be your best self?

  • Reflect/ Pray

The 5-Minute Journal #1

Today I am truly grateful for:

  • My well-being ✨
  • A roof over my head ✨
  • End the day with rain. Hmm cosy ✨

Here’s what would make today great:

  • Wear more comfortable shoes. My back and legs are in pain now, after a long shopping haul in Zara earlier. 😦
  • Wake up earlier, almost miss my bus for French lesson. I was running like hell to catch the bus just now. 😦
  • Should have bought dinner earlier, I am hungry af now. 😦

Today’s Affirmation…

  • I am grateful for what I have 💖
  • I am doing well, everything is on track 💖
  • I will not worry about things beyond my control 💖

Here are few amazing things that happened today:

  • Able to dine in at ease after vaccination. Had pasta pairing with a glass of Chardonnay during daytime (oh how I miss it) Not to mention, I can have pasta every day, not getting bored! 🙂
  • Had a call with my helper after more than a year. She is doing well with new marriage, a loving husband and two stepchildren. She has been working in her farms with good harvest, so happy for her! 🙂
  • Bought 3 pants from Zara today, so sleek yet affordable. What a steal!! Can’t wait to wear it out to meet my friends next weekends. 🙂
  • Slowly picking up French, I can do simple sentences, starting to recognize them too. Still working on it! 🙂
  • Had a cup of iced Mocha for my caffeine dose 🙂
  • Did my eyebrows shaping, so ready to be vain meeting my friends! 🙂

Nothing Was Right

It was rather a long week indeed. Last week started with news of le uncle’s family got infected with Covid-19, but thank God they are recovering well. Uncle was sent to quarantine center; cousins were asked to stay home. Le grandma, aunt & baby niece were driven to assigned hospital as they were categorized as more vulnerable group. Everyone freaked out when we first heard the news, especially in times like this… We can’t offer much help as we are not allowed to cross visits or so, but hope for the best and keep each other posted everyday.

The other day, I didn’t do my homework before business French class. I took things for granted, like watching dramas, playing games, went out for dinner etc., everything but not the homework. I felt guilty, or rather bad for myself that I need to call for help in class (let’s just skip the details). Not sure if the competitive spirit in me hit me kinda bad, that I swear by myself I will never repeat the same mistake. I gonna do revision before classes, complete all the homework given and so for. I still find French is more difficult than Spanish, but oh well… I love challenges!

When we were getting kinda used to things (we do), we often forget the reasons why we begin… I challenge myself in signing up a new language, but I am not working hard for it. I am committed to few things (important) at a time, but I am not doing my best yet. I can do better, I thought. To be honest, I sometimes set quite high expectations for myself, so that I will continuously improve, become a better person. I often look up to those friends who have the same fighting spirit like me, though I also understand not all wants that kind of lifestyle. But still… I always admire those who are ambitious, never settle for less.

Oh well, I guess I just have to work on myself the most. Some of my friends are now already in managerial level whereas me who started career path later have so much more to work on. I didn’t feel sorry for myself but otherwise, as I have tried more fields than some! I believe everything happens for a reason, but I also trust that we choose our own destiny. How contradicting lol. It gonna be a new journey again in few days time, I just gonna learn as much as possible before I decide on anything just yet.

For the second half of the year, I would just be me and my goals! Wish me luck ✨