First Wedding Vow of the Year

It has been awhile since I attended a wedding. I supposed to attend 3 overseas weddings last year, but they got postponed due to Covid. Singapore has strict regulations to comply, so yeah my friend kept the attendees to very small group, which is less than 50. I was touched when I was being asked to attend, especially she capped to such small size.

I have not seen her for quite some time, mainly due to we have different priorities in life. I am so glad that she is doing well after so many years, and able to find someone to spend rest of her life with. He seems like a sweet man, someone that she can rely on, and she seems happy with him. For that, I am very happy for her!

See them reading wedding vows, made me feel like I want to get married too! Though I have no boyfriend… yet. To stick together regardless being sophisticated or not, healthy or not, happy or not. I have never felt so strong that it is great to have someone in life, to spend rest of my life with. Guess my instinct in love comes very very slow. Whoops. Prolly I was too engrossed in studies, work & social life earlier.

Now that, I am kinda settled in career, everything is in place… Guess it’s time to find someone to settle down. Hmm should I even pen this down. Well, why not since it should be part of a life plan to everyone no? I learnt that it is important to fork out time for your (potential) partner despite being busy at work, in life. So yeah, I really want to prioritize this piece, even though I might be tied down at times. Manage priorities I guess.

I have been meeting many people these days. I am not feeling desperate. Just saying, it is nice catching up with old friends, meeting new people. I told myself to keep an open mind, though I am picky in choosing partner, especially I never settled for less. And also, no “trying” a relationship. I feel it’s not fair to him, and somehow it might stop him from meeting someone that suits him.

Yup, there goes one of my new year resolutions this year! Hehe I am really looking forward to this piece. πŸ™‚ Wish me luck~

New Year New Resolutions

Came across a post on social media the other day. It was “I can’t even remember the last time I ever had any new year’s resolutions because I was definitely one of those “why bothers? it’ll never happen” type of person” post. No offense. But, I am the kind who have new year resolutions. Just saying, I need something to focus on.

Glad to have long weekends during New Year, I managed to finalize new year goals to work on. I am quite satisfied on what I achieved in 2021, though few were affected due to Covid, but somehow I managed to accomplish majority of them. I monitored and realigned my goals along the way, to be more defined, adjusting to situations from time to time.

I am excited for what lies ahead, feeling hyped to work hard on what I have planned. I was having dinner with a long lost friend on Monday. He asked: who do you see yourself compare with? Myself, I said. Not being ignorant. Just saying, everyone has their own path and I don’t want to compare with anybody else, so long I am doing better than my old self.

It is quite subjective whether or not to have new year resolutions. To me, it would be good to jot down what’s in mind, plan out resources to achieve my goals. I started doing it few years back, and they are the reasons that keep me pushing. I feel accomplished whenever I achieved something and then struck them off from my list.

Can’t wait to see myself at a new high by end of the year. I am pretty busy recently at work, in life, with friends. But I am feeling good cause I find myself being efficient with limited time. Though it can be quite tiring at times, I managed to complete a lot of tasks. Guess my new bought planner really makes wonders. πŸ™‚

How about you? What’s your new year resolutions?

Journal Prompts for 2022

1.     What are 10 great things that happened or that you accomplished in 2021?

  • Successful internal mobility
  • Passed ICA advanced certificate
  • Met someone who changed my perception of love  
  • Blood Donation
  • Candlelight concert
  • Ocean restaurant
  • Take good care of my mental health
  • Having good boss & considerate colleagues
  • Love what I do at work
  • Signed up 2 years gym membership- best investment of the year

2.      What do you want to celebrate?

  • I made promise in doing things even though I am not sure if it is right or it will succeed, at least I took that leap of faith. And I did it!

3.     How do you want to approach 2022?    

  • Remain fearless, to live with no regrets!

4.     What qualities do you want to cultivate?

  • Let things happen, trust the process, and enjoy the ride.

5.Β Β  Β  What bad habits do you want to leave in the past?

  • Punctuality
  • Egoistic
  • Splurging

6.    How will you commit to yourself?

  • To remember that no matter how hard it gets, I will continue to remain true to myself

7.    Where will you pour your attention?

  • Physical & mental health. Body management. Career. Education. Relationships.

8.    What habits or practices nourish you?

  • Write journals. Read books.

9.    What do you want more of in 2022?

  • To allocate more time for relationships & myself, aside work.

10.    One small thing you do everyday to be your best self?

  • Reflect/ Pray

Let Things Happen, Trust The Journey And Enjoy The Ride!

Appreciate where you are in your journey, even if it’s not where you want to be. Every season serves a purpose. Let things happen, trust the journey and enjoy the ride! 🎑

To sum up, it was a great year this year! It’s rough at times but I know I will come back stronger. Despite not coming home for almost 2 years, I still yearn to experience new stuff, to create good memories. πŸ€

I made promise in doing things even though I am not sure if it is right or it will succeed, regardless in life, relationships or career, at least I took that leap of faith. ✨

Thought I have done well since I have no regrets on what I am doing, even my family and friends are so proud of me πŸ˜‡ Will continue doing it next year, sounds like a plan to me!

Guess that’s that. Happy New Year people 🍻

The 5-Minute Journal #3

Today I am grateful for:

  • Getting new work laptop ✨
  • Receiving Christmas gift from Lina ✨ Β 
  • Retrieving my lost spectacles ✨
  • Fixing my I-thought-it-spoilt shoes ✨
  • Having lunch with colleagues at Sanook Kitchen ✨
  • Be punctual at work ✨
  • Getting popular at work HAHA ✨

Today’s affirmation:

  • I am thankful for what I have, for what I receiveΒ πŸ’–
  • Feeling so good to receive good energy. Law of attraction indeed πŸ’–
  • I always do my best, for myself, for others πŸ’–

Here are few amazing things that happened today:

  • As I will be flying overseas soon, my colleague actually prioritized my queue in getting new laptop so that I can fly at peace 😊
  • Gotten a sling bag as Christmas gift, something I have been wanting to buy for my phone 😊
  • Lost my spectacles 2 weeks ago. So lucky that someone actually helped to keep and return me! Not to mention, I just changed them this year! 😊
  • Wore one of my favorite heels to work today. I thought it spoil, but I managed to fix 😊
  • It has been awhile since I had lunch with bunch of colleagues at work. The food was good 😊
  • More and more people knew me at work, not sure why. Maybe I have more authority since I am working in office. But sure, since I love helping people 😊
  • Managed to call for Grab early and reached office on time today, was difficult to call for Grab for the past few weeks 😊

The 5-Minute Journal #2

Today I am grateful for:

  • Having booster shot ✨
  • Waking up at 9am++ after so long ✨
  • Having group call with family ✨
  • Eating Tiramisu (fav cake) in birthday month ✨

Today’s affirmation:

  • I am thankful for what I haveΒ πŸ’–
  • I am feeling better after staycation πŸ’–Β 
  • I will not worry about things beyond my control πŸ’–Β 

Here are few amazing things that happened today:

  • Waking up at 9am++ on a non-working day today. I have been waking up at 5am++ regardless working or not everyday earlier 😊
  • Claim birthday cake- Tiramisu (fav cake) in birthday month before new year 😊
  • Some me time to do self reflect. My mind is clearer now 😊
  • Continue reading a book which I have been longing 😊
  • Was praised for having nice hair while checking out vaccination center 😊
  • Was showed concern if my hometown was hit with flood 😊
  • Grandma + uncle’s family were safe from flood 😊
  • Got to rest like finally, finally! Though no alcohol for the next few days 😊

Last but not least, Merry Christmas everyone! πŸŽ„ An annual festival commemorating birth of Jesus Christ!

Law of Attraction

I don’t deem myself a book smart or very intelligent person. But somehow I am one lucky girl- I always get what I want, of course I work my way up too. I am an optimistic person who worry less though I used to get anxious over unforeseen circumstances that might never happen. It is a total waste of time I would say. No jinx please, still counting my blessings. I believe in law of attraction, especially after reading the book myself.

The law of attraction is a philosophy suggesting that positive thoughts attract positive results into a person’s life whereas negative thoughts attract negative outcomes. It is based on the belief that thoughts are a form of energy and that positive energy attracts success in all areas of life, including health, finances and relationships.

I never doubted myself for not able to achieve what I want. Never. I am not being ignorant. Just saying I am the kind who will focus, work on my goals and never look back. I am very determined to work things out though I might cry when I am stressed out. I never back out. I never told myself that I don’t deserve anything good. I totally deserve it! I would rather work harder than settle for less.

Recently, we went Ocean restaurant to celebrate our birthdays. Pretty much an extravagant experience that I prolly won’t be going back again. The overall experience was top notch, for instance their services, food and restaurant ambience. Just saying it is not a norm where I will be going back as a returning customer cause the experience was not cheap. It is meant for an extravagant experience like I said. But, oh wells, once in a lifetime, plus since we are stuck in Singapore during birthdays. Why not?

It was indeed a memorable night. Having jazz music as BGM with fishes swimming in front of my eyes, I never thought I will be experiencing this in my lifetime. Not that I don’t deserve it, but rather I never thought I can make it this far. Living overseas for almost a decade, I guess I am doing good, to be able to afford such experience. Moral of the story: work hard to have more choices, to deserve better life. I guess we need to be practical and realistic at times where money does provide some sort of security and comfort.

Still working hard on my goals. Still sending positive messages to the universe as I believe I will receive the same. I don’t wish everything is smooth in life cause I know that’s not possible. Instead, I pray for the strength to conquer challenges when times are bad. And of course, always reminding myself to be thankful- appreciate for what I receive, for what I have. Feeling abundant!

Are you working on your new year resolutions already? Cause I am!

Rocky November

Can I just say November is not a good month, well at least to me. On top of crazy workload, I am now acting as an interim team lead in the meantime before my senior who rejoined the team taking over the task. I barely have enough rests these days, mainly I have been using my brain a lot at work for decision making, scrutinizing, interviewing, crafting emails, investigating and seeking approvals.

I feel mentally fatigue almost every other day, especially after work. Not to mention, I have been waking up at 5am, not sure if it’s due to work stress, I will sleep back thereafter, as if I messed up my body clock. Still biting the bullet at work as I have yet to figure out my own system to work in office. Hopefully I don’t fall sick or so especially during Covid times… Though I met few counterparties who are not being cooperative, but I am blessed to have supportive boss and seniors leading my way.

I have been following this Horoscope guru whom I find really experienced. After knowing what’s coming in November, I just have to better prepare myself. She mentioned we (Sagittarius baby) will be receiving a lot of weird cases (which is true, I have been encountering quite number of odd jobs), having trouble to sleep and have to find ways to tug oneself to sleep (which is also true). I didn’t get to sleep today, at all. Insomnia sucks! I would feel helpless at times. There’s nothing much to do except to better equip myself and let the time flows. I just need to focus on myself and do my own thing despite there might be menace at work.

It’s 7th November today and I already feel very restless. Can’t wait to end the month and welcome December- my birthday month! Hoping for well-being of myself (mental health & physical health) and no heart attacks please~

Time is Like A River

Time is like a river. You cannot touch the same water twice, because the flow has passed will never pass again. Enjoy every moment of your life!

A message that strikes me when le mom shared me this quote.

Often we plan too far ahead, as if we have a lot of time, feelings won’t change or people don’t leave. We take things for granted.

2 more months before 2022 is here. I am kinda proud of myself for what I have accomplished this year, a leap of faith year indeed. Regardless my career, studies, mental health, interest (as in hobbies) and relationship, I grasp them! If you know, you know.

Little pat on my shoulder, I have done well so far, well at least my 2021 new year resolutions are on track. Will continue to work on my new resolutions. Slowly but surely…

Slowly but Surely…

Finally, back to office after 2 months. Apparently, it was my very first week working in the office after internal transfer. Having a million-dollar view, I finally made it, I thought. I feel so powerful standing tall after working hard from one office to another, from west to east, and now at one of the skyscraper buildings in central business district.

Though I might still be struggling with the workload, but I am sure I will push through. It’s just a matter of time. Le boss just announced some good news where we will be having bigger team, apparently the workload has spiked tremendously as compared to last year, hence with the increased staffing, hopefully we are able to close more cases at our end.

Also, I am assigned to complete a curriculum with regards to my profession within 2 years. I felt weary at first as I just submitted my assignment few days ago. I had so much sleep debt to pay back. But to think again, I am thankful for the opportunity.

The program actually serves like a management trainee program but more in AML/ KYC aspects. With the courses being heavily subsidized, I will definitely grasp these opportunities to better equip myself before reaching another new height. Totally looking forward to it! One step closer to my dream career, even better now with company providing resources and roadmap to us!

Now that I have more time on weekends, I plan to:

  • Organize meet up or virtual ones (keep it small)
  • Go for candlelight concert
  • Donate blood again
  • Complete 15 new books
  • More paintings
  • More karaoke sessions (at home lol)
  • Improve French (work on listening)
  • Practice Cha Cha (work on routines)

Slowly but surely… πŸ™‚