Tag: life

Looking Rich

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Recently a lot of my friends said I look rich…. Prolly due to the impressions I gave.

I just want to say I work hard not to live averagely, if you know what I mean. There are days I left work at 11pm, I work out during lunchtime, sometimes skipping dinners etc.

Obviously, I would want to work my way up the ladder, improving my lifestyle, more travels and gaining new experience.

Then again, they prolly only see one side of me. So, I am not defending myself cause I want to be rich too ☺️ law of attraction aye?

The Missing Labels

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March is here. And I made an unexpected decision that I wouldn’t think of doing it after staying in Singapore for more than a decade. I did it anyway. Of course, I sought my parents’ support beforehand. What a courage, I thought. Little milestone huh.

Still coping at work after changing team for a month. I end work late most of the time these days. Feel kinda lost. It’s something I like to do but at the same time, I am spending most of my time doing it. Is this the kind of life I want to live by? On a separate note, HR signed me up for a course (without informing me) that I planned to take after Korea trip in April. But oh well, since company is paying for it, I am not complaining (maybe a little). Here goes 6 months of social lockdown.

Was scrolling Facebook the other day. I miss those days I cooked a lot and did fancy plating. I am a foodie, so I love venturing, creating dishes I crave as and when. Miss those days I could hike with a bunch of friends. Had nice brunch and catching up what’s going on lately. Miss those days I could play badminton with uni friends. Miss carrying DSLR in town, capturing city moments from day to night. Miss volunteering etc.

Guess I miss social connections, outside of work. Having multiple labels such as social committee, alumni association board of committee, senior at work etc. I realized it’s mostly about career. Don’t get me wrong. I enjoy what I am doing, but I also miss other labels of myself. Someone who loves photography, to cook, outdoorsy. I love going out, seeing the sun, feeling the greens, do people-watching (heeee). But now, mostly spend time working during weekends.

Definitely, not something I want, at least not the kind of lifestyle I want to live by in near future. I work to play, I play to work. Though I want to move my way up the corporate ladder, at the same time, I want to do something I love, outside of work. I am more than what I am good at (at work). I don’t want to spend rest of my life catching up with work, earning big bucks (just saying), but a boring person outside of work. Yikes. That’s not a typical Sagittarius.

The other day, I was asked: what’s your hobby? Yoga, Pilates. I can only think of these 2, something I did most these days. Later, I recalled I was more than that, but the memories was blurry. Until Facebook memories prompted me. I was like wow, I was so fun last time… Until work responsibilities got me more ‘settled’. It’s a wake up call. I need to figure things out if I don’t want to live my life this way.

Did midnight cycling last Friday. Never knew Lion city is so beautiful. We stopped by, and took photos. Something I used to do 5, 6 years ago, street photography. It was an impromptu session after dinner. Randomly saying to go somewhere else but no drinking in town, TGIF. Night cycling? It was a great session!

Maybe I should start picking up photography again! And volunteering too. Long story short. I just bought a DSLR. I used to have one, but I sold it away during Covid. I think it’s just nice to have it since there are a few social events upcoming and am travelling for few trips this year. Totally looking forward to it! Still figuring out what kind of volunteering work to commit to, definitely something long-term.

Finding back my missing labels. This year I really want to do more of something I like, not something I need to… Hope everything turns out well, but I am confident they will.

Law of Attractions.

Everything Will Fall Into Place Right?

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I have officially moved on to new team on 1 Feb, felt like a newbie at work. Not knowing what to expect or so… My ex-teammates are no longer same floor as me, so I am all alone at level 46. Some part of me wished I can follow them, some part of me knew that’s not what I want. I know I gonna learn a lot in new team. It has the biggest portfolios after all.

I am the only person whom my boss brought over. Wow! That’s what people thought too. One part of me is glad as I don’t need to adapt new boss; another part of me kinda loss sense of belongings. Sounds exaggerating huh. Didn’t know it will hit me like this, I think I am more affected leaving my team than joining the new team. My ex-team disbanded.

I posted on IG, asking: “Everything will fall into place right?”

Friend XZ:

Texted me asking why am I feeling emo? I told her re-org happened, and my whole team is gone. My boss brought me over but I feel like losing sense of belongings, so I cried. I was consoling my colleague the other day, we are still in the same bank, we could meet for lunches, but there goes me crying at home lol. XZ reminded me nothing is forever at workplace. Checking in if I will be going home soon, to ensure I am not alone during CNY. I like how she appeared when I need someone.

Friend Je:

Asked me if I am feeling okay and what happened? Hmm some work matter, and I am still coping… 2nd day with the new team. He reassured me saying: everything will be okay! Sometimes life pulls you back a little so you can go further just like an arrow on a bow! That’s my favorite quote! I thanked him for bringing this up to my eyes again. He should know it means a lot to me. He added, I should be proud of myself that I am constantly pushing my limits, cause he is very proud of me!

Friend Cal:

She replied to my story: absolutely yes! Sometimes we need to fake positivity to stay positive. Thank you for reassuring it when I am not able to stand firm on what I believe in.

Friend Jo:

Are you okay? To be honest, I don’t want to fake it up, I came from a team of 8 to me, alone now. Today finally hit me and I break down crying. Hang in there, feel free to meet up if you need, she said. Nah, I don’t feel like talking, I am heading home in few days’ time, I will be fine. I might feel better if we could proceed our Korea hotel booking. We settled everything in 2 hours. The apartment that I wanted was reserved by someone else. Nonetheless, I am pretty satisfied with our final choices. Everything happened for a reason huh.

Friend Zay:

Hey, you wanna come out and talk about it? It’s okay babe, I don’t feel like meeting anyone now. I am here if you need someone to talk to, he said. I know he will.

In times like this, I feel really blessed. I have friends that console, reassure and provide me comfort, especially those who gave me words of wisdom. I hate holding negative energy, I will do whatever to churn it away. Work maybe, or some readings. Still have a lot of things to learn, work to catch up. Not to mention, I will be on long leaves during CNY, meaning to say I needa clear tasks on hand in advance. Hmm, sound occupied already. I should get some rest these days and clear my work whenever possible. That sounds like a plan!