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Everything Will Fall Into Place Right?

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I have officially moved on to new team on 1 Feb, felt like a newbie at work. Not knowing what to expect or so… My ex-teammates are no longer same floor as me, so I am all alone at level 46. Some part of me wished I can follow them, some part of me knew that’s not what I want. I know I gonna learn a lot in new team. It has the biggest portfolios after all.

I am the only person whom my boss brought over. Wow! That’s what people thought too. One part of me is glad as I don’t need to adapt new boss; another part of me kinda loss sense of belongings. Sounds exaggerating huh. Didn’t know it will hit me like this, I think I am more affected leaving my team than joining the new team. My ex-team disbanded.

I posted on IG, asking: “Everything will fall into place right?”

Friend XZ:

Texted me asking why am I feeling emo? I told her re-org happened, and my whole team is gone. My boss brought me over but I feel like losing sense of belongings, so I cried. I was consoling my colleague the other day, we are still in the same bank, we could meet for lunches, but there goes me crying at home lol. XZ reminded me nothing is forever at workplace. Checking in if I will be going home soon, to ensure I am not alone during CNY. I like how she appeared when I need someone.

Friend Je:

Asked me if I am feeling okay and what happened? Hmm some work matter, and I am still coping… 2nd day with the new team. He reassured me saying: everything will be okay! Sometimes life pulls you back a little so you can go further just like an arrow on a bow! That’s my favorite quote! I thanked him for bringing this up to my eyes again. He should know it means a lot to me. He added, I should be proud of myself that I am constantly pushing my limits, cause he is very proud of me!

Friend Cal:

She replied to my story: absolutely yes! Sometimes we need to fake positivity to stay positive. Thank you for reassuring it when I am not able to stand firm on what I believe in.

Friend Jo:

Are you okay? To be honest, I don’t want to fake it up, I came from a team of 8 to me, alone now. Today finally hit me and I break down crying. Hang in there, feel free to meet up if you need, she said. Nah, I don’t feel like talking, I am heading home in few days’ time, I will be fine. I might feel better if we could proceed our Korea hotel booking. We settled everything in 2 hours. The apartment that I wanted was reserved by someone else. Nonetheless, I am pretty satisfied with our final choices. Everything happened for a reason huh.

Friend Zay:

Hey, you wanna come out and talk about it? It’s okay babe, I don’t feel like meeting anyone now. I am here if you need someone to talk to, he said. I know he will.

In times like this, I feel really blessed. I have friends that console, reassure and provide me comfort, especially those who gave me words of wisdom. I hate holding negative energy, I will do whatever to churn it away. Work maybe, or some readings. Still have a lot of things to learn, work to catch up. Not to mention, I will be on long leaves during CNY, meaning to say I needa clear tasks on hand in advance. Hmm, sound occupied already. I should get some rest these days and clear my work whenever possible. That sounds like a plan!

Busier Than Ever

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Finally back to work after a short break. And yes, I am done and dusted with 1st module assignment. Self declared semester break, woohoo!! I am secretly planning for another staycation to reward myself already. 🙂

Apparently, quite a number of people know I will be transferring to new team in less than 2 months. I was not ready to share the news, not this fast. I didn’t expect it as I initially wanted to share the news maybe like less than 2 weeks before I leave. But oh well…

Nevertheless I have been receiving encouraging words from fellow colleagues and supervisors. Many of them are sad that I am leaving, but happy for my career prospect. Some offers to meet up for lunch (I will be stationing at new office); some even says keep in touch, stay safe and wish me all the best. I am touched to be honest, despite we might have disagreement at times due to different job functions, I am glad that all ends well. I make friends, and learn a lot.

Nowadays, I am busy conducting training whilst clearing few projects on hand. Doing some handovers, and prepping myself before joining new team! I have been staying overtime but I am thankful that my company allows us to take cab to and fro from office. I am able to rest in the car, power nap sometimes. No need to rush for work, worry about missing trains. I was rushing assignment after work hours earlier this week. Basically, my routine was just work, study and sleep this entire week. Nothing much but definitely energy draining.

Wanted to take few days leaves before stepping into new phase. But there are 3 more people leaving my current team soon, high turnover heh. I try to stay helpful by guiding my cover as much as possible. I once survived by myself before the person I took over left in 8 days. Learnt nothing much but those ignorant attitude from her. I don’t want her (my cover) to encounter the same event I had. It was so rough that I used to cried so much at home or work. To the extent, I wanted to quit my job so badly, even within probation. She has been struggling but I am glad that she asks a lot of questions, so that I am able to clarify or give comments if need.

Singapore Phase 2 lockdown is ending next week, and I seriously can’t wait for it! I miss dining in in those fancy restaurants, eating hot cooked food unlike takeaway food now, unless I cook at home. Cooking is fun but washing dishes is meh for me. I always hate doing dishes, that’s why I usually cook simple food. I don’t mind cooking crème de la crème dishes if someone offers to do the dishes, kidding!

Next week will be war again, but as usual, always hope for the best. Maybe I can read some books, get some meditation and have jujube tea break. And now, where should I stay for coming weekends heh….